Only 2 years ago, I didn't have a clue how to put an outfit together, didn't care about what I wore or what I looked like when I went out, and pretty much had no interest in fashion. I'd only just made my first online shopping order, and frankly had no sense of style, or any idea of what would look good with what. I had, I'd say, 10 items in my wardrobe, plain, basic, not stylish at all, just the sort of 'throw on and go' clothes. Which if you like, then you do you, but it just got to a point where I wanted to branch out, find something new, and give myself a 'glow up'.

I had a lot of 'dreams' if you want to put it like that. 2 years ago, I wasn't really happy with how I looked, but didn't have much confidence to make them changes. I wanted my hair cut differently, change my style, I became so envious of a lot of people who I wanted to look like. I'm such an impatient person, so when I decide I want to do or change something, I want to do it that second (when realistically you probably can't). Changing my hairstyle was a very lengthy process, a lot of this, a lot of that, changing, a bit cut off here, more shaving there. It became like bloody bingo. The same with picking out the right clothes.

Over the past 2 years, I've been through a lot of different experiments with fashion. Like I mentioned, it was only 2 years ago that I made my first online clothes order, and all that consisted of was a denim jacket, and 2 pairs of jeans (normal and black). There was a lot out there still yet to be discovered. At first, I became envious of people's outfits and styles, and as I'm a very impatient person, I wanted to look like that, when in reality, it would take longer than what I wanted, which made me put it off completely.

I stayed in my comfort zone for a while (I was nervous buying a bloody denim jacket), that's how stuck to my comfort zone I was. Back then I didn't have a job, so it wasn't an option to splash out on clothes whenever I wanted to. All I sort of did was browse and browse and browse and start to make semi outfits in my head, which led to, when my birthday came around, buying it all in bulk. I remember only a year ago that I made my first ASOS order of (a lot) of clothes. Still not completely sure on what I liked, just sort of winging it. Now, I think my delivery driver actually knows who I am because he delivers so many parcels. After a lot of browsing, ordering, returning, and possibly some tears because I became frustrated when things wouldn't always fit me, I'm now on the road to finally feeling confident in the clothes I wear.

A question I get asked a lot is 'who are your inspirations', 'who do you look up to fashion wise', and the honest answer is no one in particular. I think it's inspiring when somebody looks up to someone else, because it shows that they have direction and know what they like. But honestly, I just did it myself. Went through constant style fails, browsing, and research to find me. If I wanted to find a new outfit, or try something new, I'd find an item I really like online, and see what the model is wearing with it, that's my biggest inspiration. Then I'll either copy what they're wearing, or tweak it to fit with my style.

Fashion shouldn't be about competition and looking better than someone else, it's about self-discovery and showing to the world who you really are. Whether that be bright neon colours, smart-casual, or going the comfy route. Not trying to be big-headed in any way, but I do get a lot of people coming up to me now saying they 'really like my outfit', 'you look nice', or 'you're so fashionable', which is probably the biggest compliment you could give to me, because now I really do care about what I look like and I enjoy the process of picking out, and putting an outfit together.

Over on Instagram, I follow a lot of male fashion bloggers, which I guess is another part of my inspiration (and their feeds are insanely good), but ultimately I did it on my own, and it may not seem like a big thing, finding your style on your own, but I'm going to be proud of it, and if you found it on your own, you should be proud too.

Nowadays, I know some people will still think that fashion can't be an interest men have, as it's not 'stereotypical', we should like football, beers, and going out with 'the lads'. Well balls to that, them people need to have a serious reality check and look around them a bit more. That's a reason why I didn't really be adventurous at first, because I was scared that people were going to judge me, especially in school, but now I don't give two craps. Love what you want to love, and if people don't like it, that's their problem.

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